Was enjoying some peace whilst appearing offline then came across this:

I got the screenshot from a blog - I don't know who exactly the blogger is, probably someone one year my senior back in secondary school.
But anyway, it really got me thinking - I used to take my blog as a site for myself & others to be reading for remembrance or, to simply, keep track of events & then sometimes I read my archives & then start laughing at myself for having typed so much bullshit that never really made any sense.
Yet recently I find myself getting so used to typing words into that empty screen & then somewhat expecting people to read it. Then as I pour my heart out to this empty screen I slowly found myself distancing myself away from people b'cos afterall it's much easier speaking to a computer screen isn't it - well at least they don't chide you for crying while you type those words out. & then I stopped sharing my worries & difficulties to everyone else.
& recently it's been getting more frequent that people come to me & tell me to stop keeping stuff to myself & start opening up.
But then, won't you people be shunned away when I begin to cry like some motherfucker in front of you guys just like how I'm crying to my computer screen now?
When asked, "Are you okay?" I would always reply, "Yes, I'm fine." without hesitation. I always wished people they would ask again. But when they ask me again I say they're irritating. But I somewhat love it when people irritate me in this manner - then would I only know who genuinely cares.
